Of addicts, addiction ….and recovery !

We addicts, are a tortured, oddball cast of characters. As we go through life, living clean a day at a time; It is our constant anxiety about the horrors of a relapse, our memory of its past labours and our dread of its future manifestations, that lays down the rules of how we work towards our recovery and cherish each day clean.

Deep down in our hearts fear stalks us like a predator in a dense forest at night. Fear is omnipresent, like an invisible fume that you do not see but know that it surrounds you. And know, too, that it can ignite in your face. And that fear of a possible relapse eggs us on to do that little bit extra, stretch that extra mile to stay ahead of the predator. We read literature, talk to other recovering addicts, attend recovery meetings, help others stay clean; inter alia.

Those of us who are clean today (and there aren’t that many) have learned to value our recovery and jealously guard ourselves navigating the minefields spread in the path of day to day living. We keep our antennae up all day long, our awareness levels high. We tread gingerly through trouble spots – avoid some altogether. And accept each day that passes as God’s gift to us; a day won. Because all of us, my friend, are living on bonus time. Left to our own devices, we’d have been dead a long time ago.

Don’t hate the addict, hate the disease. Don’t hate the person, hate the behaviour. If it’s hard to watch it, imagine how hard it is to live it.

Herebelow’s a link to Sinead O’Connor’s soulful rendition of a junkie’s journey titled aptly – “Reason with me” from her album “How about I be me (and you be you)?”

 Let’s reason together!


– Ronald D’Silva

Addiction – Deaddiction & Rehabilitation

As addicts, we are people whose use of any kind of mind-altering, mood-changing substance causes a negative impact in every area of our life. Addiction is a disease that involves more than the use of drugs. It is a progressive disease – and an insidious, powerful and overwhelming one at that.

To make matters worse is the “denial” that is an inherent part of the disease.

Most of us did not consider ourselves addicted – as long as we could stop using for a while, we thought we were all right. As our addiction progressed and as things within and around us started getting worser and worser – in desperation we started asking ourselves, “Could it be the drugs?”

As our disease progresses; higher mental and emotional functions, such as conscience and the ability to care and love are sharply affected. Living skills steadily get reduced to the animal level. Our spirit is broken and the capacity to feel human is lost. This may seem extreme, but many of us have been in this state of mind.

We believe that there is nothing shameful about being an addict, provided we accept our dilemma honestly and become willing to take positive action. It sinks in slowly that the drugs have become a problem and some remedial action needs to be taken. The internal conflict we experience as we look behind to see the trail of destruction that has scarred our body, mind and soul – leaves us numb. In some of us the fear, frustration, loneliness, despair and sense of hopelessness drives us into further acts of deprivation. The air around us seems to be seeded with failure and insanity. Cowed down, in sheer hopelessness – we start reaching out for help.

Although the odds are stacked against us, our experience shows that spending time at a rehabilitaion center, learning about the disease of addiction and its debilitating effects on us; working a daily program greatly increases the odds for recovery.

We believe, that it is perfectly “normal” for an addict to think about using or to use drugs. Abstaining from all mood-changing and mind-altering substances is an abnormal state for an addict. But over a period of time of staying clean and enjoying the fruits of recovery, staying clean becomes the “new normal” as life becomes meaningful all over again.

Take that first step – seek help now. Take your body and the mind will eventually follow.

In closing, can’t resist the temptation to cannibalize on Paulo Coelho’s quote – When you desire something with your whole heart, and work whole-heartedly towards achieving it – the entire universe conspires to make it happen !

Don’t waste another day on your addiction

“Our reaction to drugs is what makes us addicts, not how much we use. Our inability to control our usage of drugs is a symptom of the disease of addiction. We are powerless not only over drugs, but over our addiction as well. We need to admit this fact in order to recover. Addiction is a physical, mental and spiritual disease that affects every area of our lives.” – Basic Text, Narcotics Anonymous

Most experts, working in the field of addiction; agree that residential addiction treatment offers the best chances of staying clean. This involves staying in a specialized facility and participating in daily treatment programs. This eliminates the problem of succumbing to the overwhelming mental cravings & allows for round the clock care for the inevitable withdrawal symptoms and any psychological issues that may arise.

For most, it’s never easy to send a loved one to a rehabilitation facility. Staging an intervention and asking a loved one to enter treatment is typically stressful and emotional. However, it must be realised that an addicted person is very unlikely to be able to quit on his own.

We did not choose to become addicts. We suffer from a disease that expresses itself in ways that are anti-social and that makes detection, diagnosis and treatment difficult.

Initially, after going through a gruelling (and in some cases, horrifying) detoxification program – imagining life without using any mood changing mind altering substance sounds like a death sentence. But working a recovery program on a daily basis reworks things around in our heads and we start seeing hope and start gaining confidence.

Recovery is scary, confusing and lonely but recovery is created by you. Recovery, amongst other things, can also be defined as a return to a normal state of health, mind and strength. The amazing thing about recovery is it is personal, individualised and created by the one recovering.

Don’t waste another day on your addiction – let us help you get on the path of recovery today. Get help now !!